i really dislike this feeling of being vulnerable and open.
feeling like i am at the mercy of someone else’s decision or feelings.
and maybe that’s why i counter falling fast with detachment and moving on fast.
i don’t want to stay long enough to mull over stuff and consider and give space and what not..
staying long enough for a possibility is just merely asking to be stabbed right in the heart.
and i told myself i would stop doing that, and i don’t have many decades more to wait on stuff like this… and so i shall not.
i don’t need these people in my life..i wanted them in my life, but i am not sure if that feeling was mutual enough for people to warrant some action and effort.
and no, vi has no time to wait..she has to go.