giving up again

i really dislike this feeling of being vulnerable and open.

feeling like i am at the mercy of someone else’s decision or feelings.

and maybe that’s why i counter falling fast with detachment and moving on fast.

i don’t want to stay long enough to mull over stuff and consider and give space and what not..

 

staying long enough for a possibility is just merely asking to be stabbed right in the heart.

 

and i told myself i would stop doing that, and i don’t have many decades more to wait on stuff like this… and so i shall not.

 

i don’t need these people in my life..i wanted them in my life, but i am not sure if that feeling was mutual enough for people to warrant some action and effort.

 

and no, vi has no time to wait..she has to go.

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